Because it arrives while you sleep, it’s the one call you never pick up on the first ring. In that pause between the fourth and what would be the fifth, in the flare of a lamp you’ve snapped on, there it is, having waited all night until it was time to awaken you, shaping its sentence over and over, simple old words you lean into as into a breath from a cave. And once the news is out, thrown over your shoulders like a threadbare robe, you move on cold feet room to room, feeling as weightless as a soul, turning on every light in the house, needing the light all around you because it’s a new day now, though still in darkness hours before dawn, a day you’ll learn to call that day, the first morning after it happened.
Lies I Tell. by Sara Borjas
A woman has a window in her face: that is the truth. I look like my mother: that is the truth. I want to tell you I am not like her: that is the truth. I am ashamed walking in a woman’s body: that is the truth. I wish to take back everything I say: that is the truth. A window can be a mirror. It can also be a door: that is the truth. As a girl, my mother slept in a shack with no windows and one door: that is the truth. My grandma would slam windows: truth. A mother’s hands are stronger than God: truth. We often use fruit to describe a bruise, like plum or blackberry: truth. My mother’s window blackberried: truth. My mother’s door peached: truth. She loves peaches: that is the truth. My father could not stand them in our house: that is the truth. We had three doors and nine windows in our house: that is the truth. A woman has a face in her window: truth. A father has a window but I don’t know where it is: truth. What burrows is the peach fuzz, he said: that is the truth. I have never been close enough to a peach to eat one: truth. The worst things last on the skin: truth. I don’t like not having things: truth. My father has one door but I can’t find it: truth. Not all windows open: that is the truth. One night I see my father crying in the yard, head in his hands: that is the truth. I make things up that I want for myself: that is the truth.